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[29 Feb 2004|08:55pm] |
if i didnt have this horrible grudge against both of them, i would laugh in both their faces.
but since that isnt the case-
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH.
dont talk about love.
you dont know what love is.
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| smile, now. |
[28 Feb 2004|10:20pm] |
one day im going to follow up on one of these crushes. one of these boys i meet and fall in love with and never see again.
this is the one.
with short dark hair and two bracelets on his left hand.
with the most gorgeous smile ive ever seen.
this is the one.
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| ewwwwwwwwwwww. |
[26 Feb 2004|06:45am] |
sometimes i still feel who he used to be. and i can smell him on my clothes from the days when we would lay in eachothers arms for hours.
soemtimes i take four hour showers.
because that cant happen anymore.
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| take my photo, you might miss me. |
[25 Feb 2004|04:21pm] |
the whole world saw how fast i fell when he picked up that guitar and sang nonsense songs to no one.
can you imagine how it would be if he sang a LOVE song for ME?
yeah, i know where shes coming from.
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[23 Feb 2004|06:02pm] |
i might move here. but im not sure.
either way, im writing in it.
so fucking add THIS.
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| fucking idiot. |
[21 Feb 2004|10:09pm] |
kid: yeah, he is like in love
kid: i think they will go out
thats the best friend of the boy who i fell in love with last night. and chased around the mall today.
and im not gunna lie. he isnt talking about me.
this is why gorgeous boys with tight pants shouldnt fucking talk to me.
im a fucking mess.
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| like a star. |
[21 Feb 2004|10:54am] |
i cant help but wishing that my two best friends werent so amazing.
cause im really tired of being jealous.
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| ROOOOOOOOCK me. roll me. |
[20 Feb 2004|11:00pm] |
i think im going to faint.
i just fell in love with one of the most beautiful people ive ever met. and i watched him play the guitar and sing so loud i thought i was going to die. because hes so fucking sexy. and then we talked about rocking out.
then i found out how much he wants some other girl.
but apperently girls dont find him all that attractive.
so sign me up for one hott boy with dark hair that falls in his eyes, band t-shirts, and tight pants.
is that too much to ask for?
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| punk rock 101 |
[19 Feb 2004|10:31pm] |
out until TEN THIRTY on a school night.
chain me up and wrap me in a paper bag, baby. cause im too fucking punk rock for anyone to handle.
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[19 Feb 2004|06:28pm] |
no one should hurt as much as i do when i close my eyes.
and remember
anything.
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| thats me in the corner. |
[18 Feb 2004|06:16pm] |
its now official.
if someone doesnt tell me theyre in love with me soon, somethings going to break.
4
3
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| take this. |
[17 Feb 2004|03:15pm] |
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just for the record, the weather today was freezing cold. and the air was full with fuck ups and fallings.
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| why you always leavin'? |
[15 Feb 2004|07:49pm] |
on the way to the trift shop he tells me hes leaving for michigan on wedensday.
and then to paris in a couple of weeks.
and then to chicago.
and then ill be gone in hawaii, and after that hell leave for paris again. or montreal. or both.
and i smile and tell him thats amazing.
but when he says hes going out to dinner with a friend the next time i get to see him,
i kind of just sit there.
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| help? |
[15 Feb 2004|10:16am] |
this is me needing a boyfriend.
a night of watching couples swarm the dance floor doing eachother verticly made me sort of understand why oprah is always saying the things she is.
i want the hott boy in the blue shirt with his sleaves rolled up sitting at the table. who promised to dance with me. but saw me and didnt.
or the one who came and sat by me and talked. then left.
IDONTCARE.
just get me one.
aaany offers?
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[14 Feb 2004|10:03am] |
valentines day is good for the heart.
its what they say if you have a lover.
you know, i dont have a lover. but ive got the two most amazing friends in the world. and ill be dancing the night away with one of them. and thats good enough for me.
take that oprah.
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| this is what they say? |
[12 Feb 2004|08:38pm] |
so apperently,
being grown up isnt nearly as fun as growing up
and these are the best days of our lives.
maybe i just havent started to grow up yet. because lately, its all been pain and death.
tell me. am i doing something wrong?
or does it get worse?
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[11 Feb 2004|08:24pm] |
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the funeral was horrible. and then i went back to school. talk about things you should never do.
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